Wednesday, November 30, 2011


I'm not going to pretend to be an expert on this by any means whatsoever, but I just came across the trailer for the new documentary, Anonymous Father's Day, and it struck my heart quite deeply.

Part of God's plan for my life is that when I was five years old, my parents met. That might sound strange, but the details make it clearer. After my father's first marriage (to my biological mother) disintegrated, he met my mom. She may not have given birth to me, but she raised me, loved me, cared for my needs... she mothered me. She's my mom. The woman who gave birth to me is a person I don't even know. I've been estranged from her for the majority of my life. There are reasons for this, but suffice it to say, she had much greater interest in other things than in being a mom to my brother and me, and she had emotionally abandoned us long before my dad gathered up me, my brother, and our few belongings to leave her forever.

Now, I'm not sad at all about the way things turned out, because the path my life followed from that point gave me a mom, a sister, and a little brother that I otherwise would never have had. The blessings that I've received in my life are literally countless and I praise God always for the life he has given me.

So while there is no sadness or regret in the separation from my biological mother, there is still mystery. When I go to the doctor and they ask questions about my family's medical history, I can only provide information for one side. I wonder if she ever had other children, and I might have siblings out there somewhere. I have questions.

Any questions that my dad could answer have already been asked. Some things, however, will always left to mystery. At least I have the luxury of some answers. Imagine not having any answers about one of your biological parents. Imagine only knowing two or three simple facts. Imagine not even knowing the name of the person without whom you would not be alive.

This documentary gives a look into the hearts of people who were conceived through a sperm donor. They have questions. They have sadness. They have a longing for connection. Their very lives are shrouded in so much mystery. These are people who are products; the results of science, not sex. It's a complex issue wrought with so much emotion. It's easy to sympathize with the woman longing for a child, but how many people in this baby-making industry take the time to ponder the vast emotional repercussions their actions will have on the child - the PERSON - they are manufacturing?

Like I said, I'm by no means an expert on this, but I am a human with a heart who feels for these people as I watch this trailer:

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!

This year I have so, so much to be thankful for! Here's a short list:
- My amazing, loving, talented, patient, godly, strong, super hot hubby, Rocky!
- My adorable, silly, smart, compassionate, fun-loving, crazy, precious daughter, Gemma
- My wonderful family and extended family who always make me feel SO very loved
- My incredibly strong, beautiful best friend, Jaime, her hubby Stewart, and especially the safe, gentle, God-filled birth of their son Caden Kolbe!! Our future godson!! :):)
- Our wonderful friends, near and far
- Food in my belly, clothes on my back, and our warm, cozy home
- An ever-faithful, everlasting love from the ever-faithful, everlasting God of the universe!!
- My gifts and talents and the ability to recognize them and use them every day

I could go on and on and on because God has been SO good to us, but it's time to head out the door and go to out Thanksgiving celebration!

What are YOU thankful for this year? :)

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Gemma - 15 months old?!?!

I can't believe how time is flying! My baby girl is already 15 months old (tomorrow) and every day she amazes me with something new.

Here's a quick list of her latest favorite activities:
- "Cook" with Mama aka stir a wooden spoon around an empty pot in the kitchen while I make dinner
- Play with Mama's cell phone and send random nonsensical texts to all my contacts (this is especially funny when it's someone I haven't talked to in months!)
- Dance (must. post. video. it is so adorable!)
- Eat! (apples, animal crackers, cottage cheese, pretzels, bread, pasta, pita, bagels, melon, carrots, beans, etc. and the occasional bites of Mommy's cookies and/or ice cream)
- Sit in Mommy or Daddy's lap and read books
- Chase or be chased all around the house
- Give kisses to Mommy and Daddy
- Imitate animal noises (especially doggies and lions)
- Master new signs. The ones she has down are: More, Milk, Thank You, Cracker.
Still working on: Like, Mommy, Daddy, Outside
- Master new words: Mama, Daddy, Thank You, Doggie, Yummm, Uh-Oh!, Yayyy, Hi, Bye
- Take off her own diaper (nooooot fun for Mom and Dad! haha)
- Run around naked
- Still in love with Bathtime - has been since birth!
- Build block towers and crash them down
- Give hugs and kisses to her Snuggle Bear and Baby Doll
- Explore and run around outside
- Blow kisses
- Climb (up stairs, onto chairs, onto tables, out of her high chairs, out of the shopping carts, onto bookshelves, etc. Point is, we have a little gymnast on our hands!)
- Be silly
- Smile and laugh at everything
- Wave to every person she ever sees anywhere (she's very friendly)

I just love this little girl so much!
Warning - picture overload! Also, sorry for some of the blurry shots - had to get the block tower building in action! Oh, and for the record - she was gnawing on this apple with her one and only tooth! So cute :)

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